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For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

I have to share this video! 

It's too adorable and these kids are so talented!

Tears were running down my cheek because I was so excited haha!

I don`t think I'll get tired watching this!

Enjoy!

   

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

     Second round of Clomid = EPIC FAIL! I feel so helpless and I don't know if I want to keep trying anymore. My side effects this time were so bad! I felt like I was going to die in my sleep. Arrhythmic heart beats and hot flashes, fever and body aches, I just couldn't go through that again but I feel super sad, maybe even a little depressed that we can't conceive another child. Now that I want it really bad I can't have it. 

     I took two PT's and both were negative. You can only take so many negatives and until you start to feel like a complete failure. I don't know what we're missing. My progesterone test showed that everything is normal. I took an OPT and did the baby dance until we can't do it anymore lol! I can try again but the serious side effects of kidney failure and ovarian cancer is seriously freaking me out. Jaa has been supper supportive but there's only so much he can do. We both want this but I feel like I should give up. Ugh! It pisses me off! I start another round of Clomid tonight. I'm still debating. 

    Another thing that makes me angry is finding out that another 17 year old chick that I kind of know got knocked up and she is considering abortion. It was all over her FB! That seriously makes me angry because here I am, ignoring all the possible serious side effects that can potentially kill me just to be able to conceive again! It makes me sad and angry! There's my rant!

    On the good side, we are moving to a new house, a bigger house, our own house :) I'm going back to my nursing job part time mainly because I get so bored at home. Don't get me wrong being a stay at home is great but I need a vacation once in awhile ;)

  

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

I don't know what it is but I love this song!

I know I can't take one more step towards you
Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love
I loved the most

And I learned to live, half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I learned to live, half-alive
And now you want me one more time

Who do you think you are?
Runnin round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are?

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

Who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are?
Runnin' round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

Who do you think you are?

     

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

            Been a week since I took my last clomid pill (2nd cycle)..Oh my gosh the side effects were so bad this time..so horrible! I felt so sick and nauseous almost everyday for the last 5 days after my last pill! I really hope we get some good results this time I would really like to see a BFP on my PT. It sucks too that PT's are so darn expensive! 

       Well, nothing new really, just same old stuff. Jaa finally finished his fish tank background and the stand he made out of 2x4's and other stuff..a lot of wood and wood chips and saw dust in our basement right now it's pretty crazy! At least he gets to clean it all up :)

       

       Here's one of the pictures of the tank. We didn't get a chance to take a before and after pictures, not even a step by step process. This is the background he made out of styro foam and concrete. Turned out pretty sweet! 

 

        Here's one of my favorite side view picture :) I'm pretty proud of my hubby, and I know he's proud of himself too!

       This is the foundation of the stand Jaa made. It's pretty solid compare to other over priced stands you get from pet stores. The bottom picture is the final picture although he still has to put the doors on the front and apply a few coats of gloss finish. This looks great in person!

  

        So there it is :) It's looks pretty sexy doesn't it? Lol! Well i better wrap this up it's almost 10:30am and I have to take Braelan to preschool. He is so excited! I love that he loves school so much :)

 Take care :)

     

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

    Well I said I was going to blog every day BUT that didn't happen! I figured if I do every two weeks or so I would have more things to talk about.

  Ok so last time I wrote something we were in St. Paul, AB staying with Jaa (he was working up there and we got to spend the week with him.) Anyway, he isn't working there for a while because sometime in the middle of the on February 10, 2011 the building they were working on caught fire and burnt down! It sucks because it was almost done!! Make that triple suck! So now Jaa gets to work in town and come home every night! I love it BUT that would mean that once the building in St. Paul is back up (because apparently they are tearing it down and rebuilding it) he will be gone again..and that's probably going to be in the summer time too! *Dislike*

  I finished my first round of Clomid on 02/10/11, I was messed up! I craved food..a lot of food..especially chocolate and blueberry muffin! I was moody! My mood meter went from 'happy' to 'grumpy' in 10 seconds! Oh well..now we know what to expect.

  On 02/16/11 I had to get some blood work done for Progesterone. They want to make sure that everything is normal and that I ovulated. On 02/25/11 my doctor finally had some "appointment space" to see me..well everything is good, thyroid, LH, LSH, Progesterone, all that looks great! So he ordered a PT...my fingers were crossed and all hopes...only to hear a BFN! Ugh that makes me slightly annoyed. So back on clomid again!

  Today is March 2nd and I start my second round of clomid. *Weak yay* Since the blood work came back excellent and further informed me that I ovulated I am confident that it will remain like that this time..we must've just missed the big 'O'..although we did BD almost every night that we're supposed to. I am hoping that this time it will work and we get a BFP! 

  I also have a new obsession..SHOES! Well it's not really "new" I've always been a shoe whore..but my obsession toned down a bit after my son's birth until recently when I discovered "SHOEDAZZLE" !!! I love love love it! Cheap price for really awesome shoes! Anyway, I will post pics of my ever growing shoe collection later on :)

  This is what's going on in my life right now. Braelan is getting bigger and smarter everyday. He can count up to 20 without messing up and he knows the alphabet..heck he is even learning how to spell now! I love it! He makes me so proud and every time he achieves something I always tear up..my little baby boy is growing up and soon he'll be going to school full time! 

  

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

                         YAY!! Last night I took my last Clomid pill! I am so done with this mood swings..I need to get back to my real self for this Valentine's weekend :) We'll be BD-ing all week..please God, please God, please God let me have BFP in two weeks!!!! Please, please, please! Oh ya, I'm not at the hotel anymore either :) We came home yesterday. The building that my hubby was working on caught fire sometime in the middle of the night, the news say it caught fire around 3:30am Thursday (very early) in the morning! How random??! Anyway they are investigating it..it's a $2 Million dollar college dorm for Portage College. No one knows how the investigation will last..insurance can take forever! This doesn't mean that my hubby is out of job until it's up and running again..ya it would be nice for him to have a little vacation but not gonna happen..I'd really rather him work..he gets bored around the house. All I can say is that I am extremely happy that he is going to be coming home to us every night :) 

            Also, another thing..not sure if I mentioned it before, I have a new Twitter account! Follow me @katy99spurrill :) That social site is becoming more addicting! So I'm trying to think of any romantic ideas for this weekend. We can't really go out alone because we don't have a babysitter..so we're going to have to be creative and think of something we can do at home that involves all three of us (my son, my hubby, and I). To start things off..we can camping out in our living room tonight (Friday night), then we are going shopping Saturday morning for food and what not, my hubby and I are going to cook together a 4 course meal including dessert! We are going to try this and still be civil with each other hahaha..I smell disaster in the air but it might turn out perfect in the end..hopefully :) I know he is up to something but I can't quite out a finger on it but whatever it is let's just hope it's good. 

          My husband is not the overly romantic type, of course I wouldn't want him to be too romantic. So when he comes up with the sweetest gifts and ideas it comes as a surprise to me and I love it. I know it's special and I know that behind his careless/carefree attitude he has a romantic side. He truly saves the best for when I truly need it the most! I love it! Plus, being in a relationship for almost 7 years, well we've learned to stop "dropping hints" if you want it just say it :) Lol! Our relationship is healthy and we are happy..happiest we've ever been. I think once you've conquered the first couple of years of "trouble in paradise" you become strong and closer than ever :) I'm happy...and I'd be even happier if we can just have another baby already! TTC#2!!!

Ok, I'll talk some more later.

        

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

                        Day 4 on Clomid...extremely irritable! Consider yourself warned..lol. Still at the hotel..I miss home..but I'm a determined woman on a mission..have to suck it up for a few more days. I don't know how anyone can live in a hotel for so long..my poor hubby :( Oh well it's work and it's not permanent. I wonder how our dog Sara is doing..she's staying at my friend Cassie's house right now..she is a wonderful friend to offer to watch Sara for us for a few days! I don't know how to thank her enough for doing that..she's the best! 

      

            So I've been doing a lot of reading about Clomid. I'm curious and I just can't wait to the BD and get a PT. I just can't wait! Apparently "Robitussin" can help loosen cervical mucous so that the sperm can freely swim in to the cervix..hmmm..something to try AND..although it is not scientifically tested, Caffeine can increase the mobility of a man's specimen..thus making them "super" and be able to swim fast through the fallopian tube and etc. INTERESTING FACTS! The question is..how the heck do I convince Jaa to take a strong shot of espresso..let alone drink a cup of strong coffee?? He is sometimes paranoid and he suffers a mild anxiety attack sometimes...we need to do the BD not go to the emergency haha! 

            I have too much time in my hands..I started a Twitter account! I don't know how it works..but I am about to find out. It is weird because majority of Twitter users are celebs..I try to "follow" them but...I just don't know how that works! Anyway..I am treating it like Facebook..posting updates and what not. I tried to reply on post by celebs like (@ellendegeneres) but I feel so silly because I know that they are never going to reply anyway..right??! So anyway, if someone is actually reading this..follow me on Twitter (@katy99spurrill) and you and I can both explore what it's all about! By the way, my Twitter updates are connected to my blog so you can updates..but if you are already my Facebook friend then you don't need to follow me lol. 

            Anyway..I digress..I know I am all over the place with my blogs but I promise the day I get pregnant (again) I will have lots of things to talk about, whine about, bitch about, whatever womanly hormonal things to talk about..I will mention on my future blogsss. :)

     ***Take Care***

             

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

             So my first day of Clomid started on Feb 6th (sunday night), So far I was felt OK Monday morning throughout the whole afternoon then I felt so tired and bloated and irritable Monday evening/night..mood swings! I am now on my second day of Clomid, I usually take them before I go to bed to avoid hot flashes during the day. I haven't experienced any hot flashes yet, I'm not sure if I want to either. This s TTC#2 and currently I am not CD7...crossing my fingers for BFP in the next two weeks..but right now we'll just have to BD every other day. 

        I am up here in St. Paul with my hubby so that we can stay on schedule as far as doing the BD. It is 9:31am and I feel tired and bloated..not so irritable (yet!) but I'm experiencing some mild abdominal pains. I'm hoping that we don't miss the big O-day. I'm considering about getting a Fertility Monitor but they are so darn expensive! Two hundred dollars for something that might only use once or twice..who knows..it is useful but am I willing to dish out $200? I don't know.

        I have to go back to the hospital to get some blood work done on Feb 16, they will checking for my progesterone level. I am crossing my fingers that it is "high" because that would mean that I am ovulating..more than one egg. We want twins..even triplets if we're lucky enough! Nausea is hitting me again..I might have to put off blogging for a day or two I'm kind of running out of stuff to talk about lol!

        Braelan had a great day at preschool yesterday (Monday), they handed out rough copies of their class pictures and they are so cute! I am trying to upload a copy but it won't let me..stupid hotel internet! Anyway, we get the originals on Valentine's day :) Speaking of that...Jaa and I were gonna go to Banff (Feb 11-15) but we decided to reschedule due to cold weather. We want to sightsee and be outdoors but not when it's -20C outside therefore we postponed our Banff trip until sometime in May or June at least it won't be too cold by then. 

>>>>I will post more updates later on..I am starving!<<<<<

      

         

For Love is the most powerful word and action, man was ever taught; Love is what we are and children are the greatest gift of Love.

Wow! It's been so long since my last blog! I have to be honest I was a little busy but lately I have been lazy about blogging..like there was nothing to blog about. Christmas came and went and it was all good for the whole family. Braelan, once again got spoiled by Mom and Dad. 

     Here's a video of Braelan on Christmas Morning 2010, he didn't want to get out of bed yet and it was 8:00 AM! I have more video but this one is taking a long time to upload so I will have to upload them on a separate blog. 

   So 2011 huh?! I hope this year will bring us a lot of good blessings. Jaa and I are trying to have another baby but we have no luck yet. It's getting frustrating and yes I must admit that I am becoming more jealous of other people having babies or getting pregnant around me! We've been trying for so long, only to have two M/C and now we can't fall pregnant. We finally went to our family doctor in November 2010 and he suggested that Jaa take a "specimen" test. We finally got that done in January 2011 and the test came back normal. So the next step is to start my Clomid cycle. Yay!! Clomid is a fertility drug, it's kind of like the first step to infertility treatment...WHICH is so weird because I am not at all infertile..I'm simply NOT ovulating regularly like other women. ***FYI*** I have a three year old little boy, he was conceive naturally with no medicinal help. {Expect the Unexpected} On top of not ovulating regularly I have also have PCOS (Poly-cystic Ovarian Syndrome) which is related to infertility.

     

     "I consider myself very lucky to have my little boy! Yes, I was young when I had him but if I had been stupid and chose the "other" option..I would not be able to live my life with regret and feeling sorry for  myself now. God had a plan and it is my responsibility to accept and cherish what I've been given." 

    Anyway, I start my first cycle of Clomid on February 6th, 2011 for 5 days. I'm ready to take this on..but not the side effects! Some common (and definitely not rare) side effects are severe hot flashes, breast tenderness, intense mood swings (PMS), and nausea...so I am pretty much hoping to get pregnant while I'm experiencing MENOPAUSE for 5 whole days! I must say, it's a sacrifice I am willing to do to have another child....or two! :) Speaking of that, Clomid causes twin pregnancies 10% of the time, with less than 1% of Clomid  pregnancies leading to triplets or other multiples. Not that I am oppose to have lots of babies, but I will certainly take 2 for 1 (two babies in one pregnancy, fyi) I've been doing a lot of research about Clomid Twins, and some say that it is rare but the research I do the more I find a lot of women who have had twins on Clomid..most are successful pregnancies too, there were some women that had triplets! Obviously they are fraternal twins, because Clomid makes a womens ovaries release more than one mature egg to get fertilize..BUT there are also a chance of one egg splitting, thus creating IDENTICAL twins...IF a woman is lucky enough..she might have triplets composed of 2 twins, and 1 fraternal! How cool would that be??! Although there are various of risks for having multiples. I know the most I'm scared of is having a stillbirth :'( 

  

   Anyway, I will be blogging about my "life on Clomid", each and everyday and hopefully we will fall pregnant on the first cycle..but who knows. I have been prescribed for 3 cycles of 50mg Clomid (for 5 days each cycle) and 1000mg Metformin I take everyday (500mg AM/500mg PM). I honestly feel like a SCIENCE PROJECT!

************LOTS OF BABY DUST FOR ME*************************

   *MUCH LOVE*